Someone like you

So I was listening to a song and the singer goes like ' Never mind I'll find someone like you ' ....
and I was like wtf ?
I wish ...well , actually I should be praying rather , that I will never find someone like you .
And I hope, no one else even ever deserves not anything that bad , I mean no one is that damaged !
Even the most unfortunate persons unfortunate whatever shouldn't even have the misfortune to meet you!
 I sincerely pity the person who will be with you , oh yes , seriously. Even around you .
I think they might sense it too , but they are either too lost , or trapped in you , or just shrug it off .
Then comes a part in the song " I'll never forget you babe"
Oh Believe me when I say,  I would oblivate my mind, the second I could .
And even yours,  if I could , so that you would stop pestering me.
So that you would stay away and let me live my life .

Go away

That terrible, terrible, terrible, weird feeling,
yes the one that makes your stomach sink ,the sad one.
The awful one.
As if your tummy is suddenly in love with the ground.
The one which would almost break you down.
The one you don't like at all.
The one which makes you feel like your insides are crushing.
The one that doesn't let you sleep.
The one which makes you wish that this is a dream.
Go away.

Another zykaar post

After a really long time I was talking to this zykaar, just random incidents and all of a sudden she goes 'Wait,wasn't she your best friend ?'
I was like yeah leave it, then this female goes " That bitch is going down ! " I just burst laughing.
You made my day.
Sometimes all you need is 'forget everything let's go kill em all' moments.
The unadulterated drama,all the running behind buses,sensible normal blah blah over pastries , coffee while it's raining ,the 7.52,
I miss you zykaar.
Very much.
Come back soon love.

All you need is Lou

All you need is Lou 

Reminder to self.

I get distracted a lot.woah look a bug or that tree or the shadow or texture or the shade and tint of a certain color or some weird form and I drop what I am doing and go look. The problem is that, I lose interest or forget to complete whatever I was on to earlier. As a result I have this huge heap of stuff I want to do, I have to do, I have started ,Half-way there, Almost done but not complete ! In my diary there are pages and pages of things I want to but I don't cause I forget so this post as a reminder to my-self to post ,to work ,to draw,to paint,to click,to upload,to share.

Another night

Another night

Thinking

Over thinking

I toss and turn

The yellow light , I notice

It has always been there

I open the window

Air so cold , it jams the zombie brain

It is refreshing

 An end ; as well as a start.

The petrichor

It seeps into you.

You are wide awake

Self #1